YSunday, September 19, 2010

我在想。
如果自己已开始就没有机会来到这个世界。
我将会是多么的欢喜

快乐。
如果我不存在。
完全的不存在
只是一个没血没泪的静止的东西。

我将会过得多么的逍遥。

是。人有很多快乐。
但是总是得不偿失。
而我却那么的痛苦。

痛苦因为我难过。
痛苦因为我失落。
痛苦因为被误会。

而更痛苦在于明明知道自己没有资格说痛苦。
因为身边更痛苦的人存在。
每天被一堆事情折腾。
我好想一闭上眼睛就可以永远的离开这烦人的红尘。

不是好想。
是非常想。
我好想脱掉一切的责任。
用一把刀把自己的呼吸静止掉。
我好想把手机摔到远远的。
拔掉自己家里的无限网。
再把电脑砸烂。
再把所有的电话线都拆掉

再去到一个没有人的地方生活。
给我一个烂洞穴也好。
给我一个潮湿的地下水购也好。
我会很安详的在那里躺着。
至少我知道，这比家中的现代蜘蛛网来得安详。

我

不需要枕头。
不需要棉被。
哪怕只有水泥地代替床褥。
哪怕只有几片烂纸皮作棉被。
哪怕只有滴滴答答的漏水声当摇篮曲。
我会安详。
我只想堕落。
只想在一边腐烂。
我想静止。
我想把一切的一切都甩掉。

何谓学业？放屁。
何谓他人之关心？虚伪
何谓他人之赞美？重伤
何谓今生的一切？报应

如果一天我疯了。
被抓到精神病院去。
就那样一辈子关在一间白色弹劾房间里。
最好把我的双胳膊和双腿都绑起来。

就让我静止。就让我堕落。

到时候，我其实并没有疯。
而是以疯子的身份过静止着的生活.
我没有勇气
我没有力气
你可以批评我。
你可以刁难我。
但是
你不可能伤害到我。

不要管我。
不要烦我
你走你的阳光道
我走我的独木桥。

我和你们井水不犯河水。
扪心自问。
你们是哪门子的咖
你们凭什么审判我。
你们凭什么

连我都不认识。
根本就不理解我。
就为我下了判决。
好啊
就这样。

夜深了在街上。
小心背后有小鬼跟着
夜深了在家里。
小心床底有不速之客
夜深了在梦里。
小心我会找上你梦境

让他人生不如死的过日子。
你也绝对不会她妈的好过。
你给我记住。

你会有报应的

YFriday, June 26, 2009

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YSunday, May 03, 2009

人生就像候车月台.有人走有人来.

我不想你走行吗?

可能在别人眼里.
你只是一只动物而已.
你不只是.你是我的朋友.
我的家人.

我再也无法在晚上听见你轮子滚动的声音
我再也无法感觉你小舌头舔我的感觉
我再也无法感受你的心跳
我再也无法抱着你温暖的身体

但你会永远活在我心里.
你给我的回忆我会记得
我会珍惜
谢谢你带给我所有的快乐
甚至是烦恼和忧虑.
你给我所有的感动我会紧记在心

你突然的离开,我承受不住
你永远活在我的心里

有缘,来生再见.

YSunday, April 26, 2009

101 things to do! and not enough time ):
IH research proposal is taking up alot of time from my life.

which leaves me with ---
NO LIFE!

i cant wait for june holidays.

BUt i have SO MUCH DEBT TO CLEAR. HAIZ. this is SO saddening! ):

YThursday, April 23, 2009

IM TERRIBLY HAUNTED MY LANGUAGE ARTS

-- i was listening to the radio:
Where people were discussing Ms California's reply to the question posted to her by Perez Hilton. HONESTLY. Every living human being. IS entitled to an opinion.

And i think for that, the judges should respect her perspective.

And from my own opinion, i think she is just being honest.

Honestly, how many beauty queens will give you a true answer? Okay, lets not center it around beauty queens, but people you see in everyday life. Scholarship interviews, job interviews, tv interviews. How many true answers do you really get?

DO YOU EVEN WANT TO HEAR A TRUE ANSWER? -
OR JUST a POLITICALLY-CORRECT ANSWER? ):

Actualy, i agree to a large extent with her answer.
- Firstly, i am happy that people are now free to choose their partners from either the same gender or of the opposite gender.

- Secondly, i honestly from my own opinion. Think that a marriage. should probably be best between a man and woman. Beuaty lies in the eyes of the beholder. I respect decisions of gays and lesbians. I woulddnt deny them of marrying with people of the same sex. Honestly, they are human beings too. AND HERE I AM HAUNTED BY LA.
=> Human beings are products of society.
=> We look at things through filtered eye
=> Filters created by society/influenced by society.
=> Facts are cheap.
=> What that are really valuable is perspectives.

And honestly from my own opinion,
an ideal marriage would most likely,
be a marriage between a man and a woman.
Researchers have said that sex is important in keeping a marriage.
A marrige alive.

(Ok. I am ill-informed in this area.
Are people able to engage in such activity with partners from the same sex?)

Still, there is still another side to this argument that.
people are attracted to each other by sex appeal.
Sex appeals sells, indeed it sells.
Look at the media, look at the streets. Look around you.
How many girls love mini-skirts? Hot shorts? Bikinis? V-Neck?
And how many guys are attracted to skinny, tight asses?
How many girls are yearning for that ideal
- nose height
- bony figure.
like bony but still abit of fats.
skinny thighs. Tight bodies. big boobs.
- - how many stars are packaged and sell in the media
as sexy women/men. Look at the Hush Puppies Male underwear collection.
Look at those men parade around with their buff upper bodies and rather lean muscular feet.

WOMEN DROOL... --
ok back to same gender mariage.
without sex appeal. the cover
will one be really able to find a partner that is truly beautiful from within.
An ugly girl vs a beautiful girl. How will you judge them?

So many questions that i cannot answer myelf. But i think that Perez Hilton should respect her views. Actually lat time i had a question likes, why do beauty paegents even have these question and answer tests. WHO SPEAKS THE TRUTH???? D:

GAH. such a headache. THANKS TO LA. (:
thats all for today! nights i have a medical appointment tmrw. sleeping early. WOW this time is CALLED EARLY XD

ok byebye (:

YTuesday, April 21, 2009

OMG.

i feel
so
NARCISSITIC!
ok, did i spell that correctly :D
aiya just zilian la
but the prob is.
i'm not really mad abt my own face --
hah photoshop makes me look better :D
MUAHHHAH DESATURATE AND THE FILTERS MUAHAHA
:D ok bye.
i WANT TO SLEEP! aRGH!

YSunday, April 19, 2009

FINALLY, i finished the designs for bspcamp2009.
URGH. my mom says that i really look like a mad woman in front of a laptop.

she says its scary.
what can you imagine?
me sitting in front of a comp.halft tied hair
pulled back fringe in a kiap
2 cups of icewater
a cat on the lap
rough paper at the sides
lots of pencils.
quite a pissed look plastered on the face.
in a half-lit room.

so the face is like, half lit too?
like most of the light on the face,
is the light from the laptop screen.

really.SCARY.
its 2:57am
ive been working on it since 11.00pm yesterday. ):
FINALLY ITS DONE
for sure it wouldnt be selected.
i can just imagine how wonderful other designs are.
):
haha. nvm i have decided to stop wallowing in sadness
sadness like the previousprevious post.
i will be happy!
actually quite shiok to stay up.
i cant sleep anyway.
my flu is getting better already
except that theres still a choked throat.
full of green phlegm.
popped ears. ):
have that floaty feeling.
and my toothaches ):
must be my braces
haha (:

nextup ->
making a handmade card for beloved! :D
i've wasted loads of time today.
PMS at the internet connection
procrastinating about things that i've to do
played the piano today (:
learnt my Ballade Pour Adeline more!!
i dont know why, but when i heard that song
i fell in love with it (:
played the piano for a total of 3hrs today! :D
had chicken rice for dinner made by my mom.
haha of course it is vegetarian :D im vegetarian!
its fake chicken! x)

and i just couldnt resist watching the square box of wonder
the square box you control using a remote! xD
aiya. its the TV la! :D
couldnt resist watching: 爱、综艺大哥大
looking forward to my 凤凰四重唱 first epi tmrw!
爱情全保 is nice. haiz. all hkdramas are NICE!
aiqinquanbao is nice, lighthearted and heartwarming!
love it! :D

shall go do my handmade card for yaya
bye!

extremes of the moodmeter for me

cheered up. by the channel u commercial for planet earth
went to google the song:

What a Wonderful World - Louis Armstrong

thank you for lifting my spirits and my heavy heart Louis.
and i believe, you've lifted many many other hearts too.

when you think you can rely on someone,
you trust them and sincerely ask for their advices etc
but when they fail you.
or just dont care
what do you do?

it just feels weird that it is not like before anymore.
i dont think i ever left a person to fend or die on his or her own.
i just thought that

when i was there for people
why did they not care when i really badly needed someone to be there with me?
):

at the end of the day
no friends ):
nobody
nothing
nothing at the end of the day.

i feel like clamming up from the rest of the world.
):
stupid that ive been taken for a ride.
stupid that pple treat you like shit when you are really sincere.
at the end of the day
you have no one to depend on except for yourself and your own family.
what a sad ending.

theres really nosuch thing as giving your heart to your loved friends
and them giving their hearts back

animals can do this
why cant the HIGHER BEINGS humans do it as well?
humans may speak the loudest, sing the highest notes, do the smartest* things

but maybe
animals do the most sincere things, innocent straight from the heart.
they are the most beautiful creatures i have seen
apart from my beloved family.
that touched my heart.
when i look back and recollect

i dont recall many moments of being touched.
its so sad.
why is it that a retriever, a cat, a dog
can touch hearts that humans themselves cant touch??
im really sadded.

goodbye. this sad world.

YSunday, April 12, 2009

被爱是幸福。爱人是痛苦
不管是什么爱都是如此。。。

YSaturday, April 11, 2009

I LIKE THIS

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ITS VERYVERYVERYVERYVERY NICE!
T__T
http://www.gojane.com/31342-dresses-pleated-drop-tie-waist-dress.html

I love dialect songs!
they are really homely,
and i love singing them! :D

YThursday, April 02, 2009

Test Results

Sickness Quotient: 54%
Your Sickness Quotient" of 54% is hardly cause for concern.

Detailed Diagnosis

Interpersonal Insights
You have a positive attitude towards nearly everything, which is incredibly stupid and very annoying to those around you. You hate your mother and father, your neighbors, co-workers, friends, and just about everyone else who happens to think you're a worthless boob.

Job Performance & Attitude
Your work is of such poor quality that your manager is considering replacing you with a machine that flushes. You have a deep love for your patients, which is unfortunate since you're a veterinarian.

Personality Insight
Your personal motto is "If you can’t make them think, make them wonder." Trust us- you've succeeded beyond your wildest dreams.

YWednesday, April 01, 2009

Prejudice
Prejudice
Prejudice
Prejudice
Prejudice

Prejudice – Prejudgment
Assumption evident
Prejudice ties in with Paul’s wheel.
Paul’s wheel is about uncovering prejudice. If you connect what you just learnt, you will discover that paul’s wheel is a tool for discovering or uncovering prejudice.
- Why is this important? :
o In Semester 2 we will be doing SRQ. Situation Response.
o Where there will be a deliberately biased essay. And the writer will use all types of methods to cover his prejudice.
o Writers will NOT openly tell you that they are prejudice.
o IT IS YOUR JOB TO EXPOSE their prejudice.
o CSI in SRQ

- How prejudice is conveyed to you?
- How is prejudice hidden?
- *WHY does prejudice exists?

- Writers will say that these are…
o debating techniques
o Argumentative techniques

- YOU will recognize these as: FALLACIES

WHAT?
- Assumptions made without concrete, substantial evidence.

WHO?
WHEN?

WHERE?
- Shown in movies?
o Gattaca
o Forrest Gump
HOW?

*SPECTRA
S – Social:
- Class-prejudice:
o Poor people?
o Rich people?

P – Political:
- Political Prejudice:
o Prejudice against country?
o Prejudice against ideologies? (communism)
o Prejudice against

E – Economic: (similar to social)
- Economic?-prejudice:
o Poor looks down on the poor
o Rich looks down on the middle-class
o PASSING OF JUDGEMENT
o A tendency to be prejudiced.

C – Cultural: (similar to social)
- Culture-prejudice:
o Look down on other cultures
o Passing judgments on each others cultures
 Example: Singapore (Hybrid of Languages)
• HUH?
• WALAO
• Eh don’t like that leh.
• GOT MEH?!

T –
R –
A –

YSunday, March 29, 2009

gua sha
the approach that LAteacher take, is it different?
if so, how?
us there a difference in the way we disect the issue.
eg. paul's wheel, spectral
we talk about questioning evidence, questioning assumption
is that different in the way your chi cher teach you?
chi cher focus more on the chi culture, chi language.
so is there a certain point of view?
- look at the writer's perspective
cause if you are biased, you tend to defend that view more!

=> COPIED FROM YVONNE YEO :D

we are all products of the society,
we are rebels of the society.

there is a relationship between the society and you
REGARDLESS OF WHETHER U PRO SOCIETY OR GOVERNMENT! MUAHAHAHA
MASSACRES:
- KILLED MASSES!
- AKIN to holocaust! (nazi-germany)
PERCEPTION
- Chinese government wanted to downplay the issue
- not talked about in their syllabus
NOT PART OF CHINESE HISTORY
even if it is, it'll be VERY BRIEF

country submarine
- what are the cause of downplay?
by 1989, the chinese students at BEI DA
were very forward, DEMOCRACY!

"russia is alrdy having a hard time"
"other countries are progressing!!!"

SEE THE DIFFERENT WAYS OF perception
*some of the videos only are only the western perspectives*
they are using a certain language to explain
=> LANGUAGE IS NEVER NEUTRAL
=> the VERY WORD THEY USE is BIASED
"incident" "massacre"

depends on which youtue clip you download.
could have been the chinese version
or the english version... :D
WHO IS THE WRITER?
WHO's PERSPECTIVE?

many points of views, many voices,
MANY PERCEPTIONS
MANY MANY ASSUMPTIONS.

always know who is the writer
cause there is bound to be bias-ness

PERCEPTIONS
VIEWS
BOUND TO BE

YWednesday, March 18, 2009

Conclusion of flag day:

- guys are more generous than girls! :D
- its best to be proactive!
- children are attractd by the stickers!!!
- parents usually donate :D
- I WILL DO FLAGDAY AGAIN!!!

**heehee, a hidden agenda of doing FD again would be trying to meet my suavey again! :D
of course, i will be stationing outside the heeren again! :D
to try and meet my SUAVEY AGAIN! MUAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA 8D (*oogles!*)

COMPELLED TO POST POST POST POST POST!
I JUST HAVE TO POST TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD ABT SUAVE ENCOUNTER TODAY!

:D today!
someone almost made me forget my favourite fruit!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAHHAHAH XD

ok.. today was flagday :D
metup with jianingning, nericey (nursery), shiaokeekee, shiaoweiwei and longshanshan!
diffused outside heeren with shiaokeekee, shiaoweiwei and longshanshan!
met alot of good kind generous helpful people today!
but also a fair share of the ho-hum, not so nice pple today!
(: (ok.. who am i to judge and label them the not-so-nices, ok maybe things happened. ah nvm (:)

it was quite hard to ask pple at first
but got used to it! :D hahaha XD
and went along to ask alot of people. (:
and this guy that i met totally made me add this clause to the "prospective men" list hahaha XD ok i dont have that list, but because of him! it came about! :D
and that clause is.... (DRUMROLL!) GENEROUSITY~!!!!
好事是值得等待的！
所以宝贝理想男人的故事就流到最后吧！

ok lets start with the artsy people!
they were such a riot :D haha x)
in a good way xD HAHAHAHAAHAHA
so abt 5 guys, with this "ldr of the pack"
hahha XD then the whole group came forward
quite intimidating. SO TALL
what did u expect! im only 150+!
then the ldr of the pack like moved his hand onto his ear
like zhuayang like that.
then in the end he was not zhuayang-ing!
his hand came down swiftly iwth a COIN! XD
like he stuff the coin on his ear, not IN HIS EAR so disgusting
lke ON* his ear like how u would put a pen on the ear (:
and he donated!!!
and he got all his friends to donate too! :DDDD 8DDDDD
so charming!!!!!!

but it was not much compared to SUAVEY! :D
he was more surprisey!! XD

AWWW
he was so suave! :D
good-looking
handsome
drool-worthy (:
a smile that makes u meltttttt
and had a VERYVERYVERY KIND HEART!

cause i was like "excuse me, sir/ma'am. would you like to make a donation?"
and the guy came forward and before i could bring myself to ask!
he said! YES I WILL........

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!
it almost sounded like YES I DO
*flower-eating syndrome*
*flower-eating syndrom-ing!*
I WAS SO CHARMED!!!! :D 8D 8D
8D
<333333333333333333333333333333333333

like really really shuai! :D and just SO SUAVE!
AWWWWWWWW XD then he got his friends to donate all his coins!
and he himself donated all his coins too!!! :D

(stefanie sun's 《遇见》plays softly in the background!)
*在人群中。。。他做的哪一件。。。可能在人家眼里
那么微不足道。。。那么琐碎的一件小事。。。
却让一个女生感动至今.........
“我还会碰见他吗？”*

我还会碰见他吗？
她还会再碰见他吗？

YThursday, March 12, 2009

Fat is the new skinny

YAY! :D

YWednesday, March 11, 2009

maybe this is what it feels like to be in love. :D your crush :D

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHH i love this! :D *swoons*

YMonday, March 09, 2009

I AM NOT GOING TO PROCRASTINATE ANYMORE
NO
NO
NO!
and here i swear that i will NOT, N-O-T procrastinate anymore
and to not do that now,
adios!

PEARS (:

YFriday, March 06, 2009

this weird feeling that upsets you skin deep.
you dont know how to describe, neither do you know how to explain it.
this feeling that only one will understand if that misfortune has fallen on you.

everyone is moving on,
cept you
everyone is improving,
cept you
everyone is happy,
cept you

people that you know,
seeing you and you seeing them
yet them pretending not to see/know/hear you
even though you waved/called out/ smile...
what an idiot i am...
its really depressing when all that happens...
people that you know, even if you know you've left them with a bad impression of self.

its a feeling like everyone hates you.
and you cannot redeem yourself. ):
beyond redemption.
saddening.

its nice to know more nice people.
nice to have known the nice people prior to knowing the present ones.
but it is hard,
hard to accept this.
that you know more nice people, and you actually like it
and the misfortune is not supposed to be LIKED.

so... what do we do?
conflicting feelings, mixed emotions
grey areas.
the world is not a mere black and white situation.
its a mesh, mash of colours, emotions of all kinds.
hard to understand, hard to grasp.
something keeps you going and you have to hold on to it.
once you lose it, it'll be hard to go on...

mixed up...
someone enlighten me?

YSunday, March 01, 2009

OMGOMGOMGOMG this is B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L! T_________TTTTTTTTTT

*hankering over the big dream!!!!* AHHHHHH!!!!!

Zenzeeli
SGD$117.16/- T-T
: Stride for the best in style. Two tone adjustable ankle straps accent this shoe with a rhinestone buckle at front. Lightly padded footbed. 3.5" thick heel.

it reflects a size 6 on auto on the browsing page!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A SIZE 6, ITS MEANT FOR ME!!! T-T
i'm a size 6, euro size 37 i think :D
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ANY KIND SOULS OUT THERE???? i would love it! :D

had a fabulous weekend... pretty sad on friday... sobz my weekend is over so quickly! ):

today my parents had an off day from work! :D so we watched animal planet tgther :D haha and played with hamster! :D x) HAMSTER!! :D and also my cats :D haha and all the animals (:

recovering pretty well too! :D omgomgomgogmgomgoggomgggg shoeshoeshoeshoe!!!!!!!!!

- x)

YFriday, February 27, 2009

whats nicer word for "piss"?

"pish?"

ok, lets just say that i am pish-ed

________________________________________________________________

yes gonggong, i posted my la learning log. i realised that i can type without looking at the keyboard. paying attention in class... listening listening... thinking thinking... and doing a whole lot of thinking....

the first term is almost over... i should have gotten used to it by now eh?

the answer is NO ):

big flat no.

i dunno leh.

its still like very sensitive to me.

its hard to understand.

nvm. who will understand?

i hope nobody will get to understand it.

de javu here

de javu that

sometimes i feel so detached ):

but still im growing fond of the new pple around me.

yangjie jingying jianing (laobanniang), ngiammie, weiwei, kaiyun

AIYAH ALOT LA.

but it still feels wierd deep down,

like some eons old pain hurting u from like the pits of your heart?

i find solace from home,

fridays, they're good (:

life, probably not that jolly.

people hear about the news

they are like shocked.

i cant be bothered anymore.

but it just feels wierd

i'm 16...

going on 16.

im not ready

sort of like in 4 yrs to come,

you're old and you carry on the real world issues problems.

uni, jc, degrees, jobs, money, taxes, money,money....

but it'll be like 1 yr late for me.

means my loved ones have to provide 1 extra yr for me.

they say that they dont really don mind

but i noe they mind deep down

sadded, disappointed,

for me its a mishmash of emotions

i dont know how to put it

i dont know i dont know.

now block tests are coming,

i want to do well

I WANT TO DO DARN WELL

like suddenly im shooting to get into prize presentation?

they do not have good-progress award.

today assembly, was quite unstable at some points.

managed to swallow them back

this kind of thing. it hurts more than skin deep.

i dont know

i really dont know.

my prep really sucks and i handed it in

i feel like !#*&^%#@%^&^* now ):

detached

and

a tad depressed.

1 life. live it

i shall try to forget these troubles...

and.

bye.

YThursday, February 26, 2009

"An Idle Mind is the Devil's Workshop"

moral of the story: STAY PRODUCTIVE!!!

_____________________________________________________
Social unrest
- widespread
- snowballs

People wont be driven into a corner (analogy of a cornered rat) with the economic downturn during these hard times. Loss of jobs, loss of income, risen poverty rates will lead to a rise in vices, crime rates

The Biblical Story of Creation
Define TENSION: conflict of values/ interest (opposite directions? physics :D)
What was the tension between the Creator (the lord god) and the creations (Adam & Eve)
- Agreements/ Set of rules to which A & E were forced to abide despite their dislike.

Link between BSOC and FRANKENSTEIN
the creature can be compared to A & E.
Victor Frankenstein was th
Creations in both stories rebelled against their creator, causing much harm and damage to both parties and others.
---- becos the creations thought that they were superior/ sense of freewill (had the right to do certain things in order to achieve what they want.)
---- creations were sentimental and had emotions.
---- greed: lust for knowledge

Their punishments:

*A & E were expelled out of the garden of eden

* Humans were cursed:
--- hard labour
--- pains of childbirth
--- there was sin in the world
Kane and Able situation: Kane murders Able due to jealousy. Used as a biblical reference.
(table forms are user-friendly/ easy to understand)

Possible similarities (Frankenstein / Prometheus / BSOC):
- man (creature) = created vs evolution
- thief: get thigns that do not belong to them
- dont do things that you are not supposed to do
- RETRIBUTION: pay for what you did
- Law & Order (Rules... rules... rules...)
- Tangible balance: things come full circle/ what comes around goes around?

SIMILARITIES ARE ALL GENERALISATION: cannot draw conclusion from general
(ITS A FALLACY!!!!!)
Prometheus / BSOC / Frankenstein:
see patterns!
- environment
- crime / conflict?
- punishment
- meaning / concept behind it!

MAN's 1st sin -VS- Frankenstein
- knowledge: dangerous and potentially fatal

Is frankenstein's desire for knowledge, satisfied?

.... blahblahblah no time to type in D: BAH!

SYMBOLS:
Light - Frankenstein, the creature found out from the still-smouldering flame thatl light can help him, give him light admidst the dark nights. However, it can als0 hurt him when he touches it.
(light represents-> knowledge, enlightenment, hope)

"Adam " who was the first man in the Garden of Eden

symbols: represent abstract concepts.

checkout: the modern prometheus painting by theodor von something.... :D

reminder: to talk abt greed
face the front when presenting! (let the audience see your pretty faces! :D)

YWednesday, February 18, 2009

you need to provide an overview in your proposal.
to orientate your reading.
such as background, feel free to create your own sub-headings.

AIMS & OBJECTIVES:
- don't lump it together with background
eg. children are the future of the nation blablabla. (THIS IS NOT AN AIM)

MAKE YOUR PROPOSAL READER-FRIENDLY

- make the format very accessible

- user-friendly

- all these above will show that you are organised

; you musn't make your reader read through the whole thing painstakingly D:

*Note:

- Language are not perfect in proposals (take note of that)

- Prevent overcommitment (JUST GET IT DONE AND OVER WITH IT!)

YTuesday, February 17, 2009

jiejie came to my house today! :D
woots! although i wasnt feeling well and was locked out of the house for 1/2 hour
:D i feel much better after her visit!
:D she bought me a bottle of Ascience deep nourish shampoo

haha washed my hair
then she insisted that i press/squeeze dry my hair
to prevent split ends from the rubbing dry action :D
haha (:and she went crazy on my comp buying stuff on9
i love her loads...
actually bot me 9 items on the net!
2 small pouches that can be used as pencil boxes

What if i have a lot of money?
1st thing i'll do: give my parents good life (:
2nd thing: i'll buy an abundance of materials to make my handicraft personally as a gift for my loved ones (family, friends and all (:)
i'll put about 1/2 of it in a savings acc to make it grow haha and then i'll consider 10% - 15% for charityi wont see this as being selfish buti dont want to put a good life for my loved ones for the sake of charityas in... yes, we should help the needy..but how to say?i guess im just abit selfish D:BAH nvm (: maybe 15-20% then

i really want to go shopping....haha, the most feministic act so far is it?:D JJ cant bring me out cause she has to work overseas again.today was a suprise visit haha x)
and i was throwing a hissy fit in the 1/2 hours i waited outside.
HAIZ....i must really look like a psycho there beside the road then haha (:

things that i hope to get:
- a pair of dark coloured long jeans (idealistically 2 pairs (: hopefully*)
- 2 pairs of shorts! :D any shorts will do. 出门裤！
- a pair of 娃娃鞋
- light coloured shirts? :D abt 3?
- singlets! :D

haiz... and if i can afford to treat myself... an addidas jacket with gold stripes?(:
haha im not the chio type but i really like the golden-striped addidas jacket!

it must cost a bomb! D: bah...
anyone knows any good places to buy good but affordable clothings?
those as described above?
clue me in!

jiejie thanks alot for always buying me stuff and handing down your marvellous clothesbut i feel really bad taking them all the time!i owe you big time sister! :D*hugshugshugshugs!!*
i feel dumb... i cant dress myself up haiz..haha but i seem to have no prob helping people select stuff...BAH.i think my self-esteem is a negative..some one pump up my self-esteem please???haha my hair feels nice now haha x) feels really comfy!! :D- shampoo - conditioning - squeeze/press dry + towel wrap!feels really good now! :Dmy flu is still not getting any better... ):headaches, earblock DEAFNESS! and i realized that my eye sight has deteoriated )::D anyway hugs to jiejie! X)
happy stuff that happened today:- janice that popped by my class!~- seeing liqi jinjin naijing during reces!- jingyi my take medication partner!- jiejie's surprise visit
on a happier note! :Dbyebye! :D

YMonday, February 16, 2009

i feel hurt, angry and sad.

WHY?

im disapointed that so many people have the tendency to judge things by its cover.
Well, im not perfect, i use to do that too. but i can tell u for sure
i DO NOT DO THAT ANYMORE

so what if you have to stay back for another 365 days?
must you immediately start giving those kind of LOOKS*
that are just so OBVIOUS in saying:
- "oh... bad kid"
- "oh... rebellions"
- "oh... sigh, another social degenerate"

IM SERIOUSLY pissed at this. @ least i know that im putting everything back into balance
YES, block out unecessary commentary\critique.
EASIER SAID THAN DONE
put yourself in my own shoes and try to understand.
i dont think that you'd even bother.
your lack of empathy and understanding is seriously driving me up the wall
i dont wish to have a spat with you
but when i get angry i will really SPAT YOU.

i was dozing off not because i was just bored or whatever, i didnt even sleep late.
CAN U JUST UNDERSTAND
im having flu, slight fever and a blocked nose.
i cant smell at all, i cant even hear things clearly
and the medication is drowsy.

stop giving me those dirty looks.
who noes what i might do to you.
well i know very clearly what i'll do
but that is just when you cross the line
for now, where u still hadnt yet pushed the limit of my patience
i shall just tolerate you.
and when you cross the line
you will jolly well know for yourself that you deserve everybit of shet that goes to you.
what comes around goes around
GET IT?

YSunday, February 08, 2009

old habits friggin die hard
well,
at least my friggin old habit of procrastinating is tAKING VERY LONG TO DIE

《你是我的眼》

。。。

如果我能看得

见就能轻易的分辨白天黑夜

就能准确的在人群中

牵住你的手

。

如果我能看得见

就能驾车带你到处遨游

就能惊喜的从背后

给你一个拥抱

。

如果我能看得见

生命也许完全不同

可能我想要的

我喜欢的

我爱的都不一样

。

眼前的黑不是黑

你说的白是什么白

人们说的天空蓝

是我记忆中那团白云

背后的蓝天

。

我望向你的脸

却只能看见一片虚无

是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘

忘了掀开

。

你是我的眼

带我领略四季的变换

你是我的眼

带我穿越拥挤的人潮

你是我的眼

带我阅读浩瀚的书海

因为你是我的眼

让我看见这世界就在我眼前

。

眼前的黑不是黑

你说的白是什么白

人们说的天空蓝

是我记忆中那团白云

背后的蓝天

。

我望向你的脸

却只能看见一片虚无

是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘

忘了掀开

。

你是我的眼

带我领略四季的变换

你是我的眼

带我穿越拥挤的人潮

你是我的眼

带我阅读浩瀚的书海

因为你是我的眼

让我看见这世界就在我眼前

。。。

repeatedly listened to this song (: its meaningful haha (: appreciate the fact that i can see (:

discovering more and more linyoujia's songs haha (:

我爱的人

他也有了爱人

从他们的眼神

说明了我不可能

。。。

(: who wrote all these songs! :D

its getting me so addicted! XD

and yoga's voice is special :)

well everyone is special! :D

okay, back to homework (:

i predict not much sleep tonight either (:

YSaturday, February 07, 2009

there should be 48 hours a day.

5 weekdays a week

3 days a weekEND

2 days in a weekend

JUST ISNT ENOUGH!

dont u agree?

YWednesday, February 04, 2009

BEING PISSED HAS JUST TAKEN A WHOLE NEW MEANING

"u've" just pushed my boundaries of being pissed

DONT COME BACK TO ME WITH YOUR TAIL BETWEEN YOUR LEGS FOR HELP.

I DONT FRIGGIN CARE TO HELP

UNAPPRECIATIVE PEOPLE

WHO DOESNT UNDERSTAND

KINDNESS

WHY THE ELL' SHOULD I WASTE MY TIME HELPING U!

U BLOODY PISSED ME OFF

YSaturday, January 31, 2009

im sadded sia! ): so much homework to do!

SERIOUSLY
HOMEWORK IS A PAIN.
ok no... not really
i dunno why i really like doing math and chem worksheets :D
big change from last year... (:

honestly... its not the homework "PAIN"
that is killing me now... its more like the PAIN that comes every month
WTH... i should just keep on eating the medicine that messes it up and keeps it away for half a year? ): SERIOUSLY CRAMPING LIKE MADDDDDD D: T___T BOOHOOOOO

hen tong leh! thank god for panadol menstrual... ): but i just ate it leh! then the effects havent come yet. it STILLL HURTS

-played word challenge on facebook. jumped from mime to ringmaster! woots! <3
- played the MS KANG GAME! :D in <3 with it. but stuck at some lvls. TnT
- feeling a BIG sense of accomplishment cos i motivated myself to read through my atomic structure notes! :D olay!:D then i annotated and drew lots of pics again hahaha ;D haha okae. things to do for monday: bring my annotated atomic notes and show jessica! :D and also deliver chrissy's chem tb as well. its been sitting with me since the hols.. thankyou chrissy! :D <3 *grateful!*

people say my notes very funny, some say its messy, some say its like im playing liddat!
OK GET UR PEN/BOOK/PAPER!

HUICI MINGYAN coming! :D

-"notes are meant to be funny

at least, thats for me

you laugh at the crazy story,

and the deal is:

you remember the stuff :D"-

ok, now i really love "mugging" i wont say mugging, i would say discovering knowledge :D hahah (: i love to acquire knowledge! :D ESP big cat diary on nat geo wild:D. reallyreally like it! :D

haha friday was a long day. well... i made it long for myself. -.- there was SO MUCH leftovver food, hahah the whole plastic bag of pastries mr chia bot. left quite UNEATEN. so i did my zuowen from cme lesson to chinese lesson (last period) all the way to 5+ omg. thats really fast rite. im sad that laoshi is injured ): we wont be seeing her for at least half a month i guess. ): get well soon! i miss chinese lesson! :D

omg... getting more and more pain......

u noe those kind of pain? that zhenzhentong.. zhenzhenlai..

): then u will shiver with cold that kind......

WAHPIANG EH. hentongarh..........................................

haha okay. talk abt last friday again. then i went pe dept cant find any chers there already... so i tried calling mrchia. no body answered -- then i went back to class ask shiao kee for ideas. she tell me bringhome the food. NO! NONONONNOOO!!! XD i bring back only waste sia. hahah so... i figured out that the girlguides were still having their cca, then zhaoqi, qinyan,YEN MYMYMYMYMYMYY stays at the boarding school. which means i can tuo them to help me bring it to mrchia. :D YAY! hahah after i solved that problem, another came along. BOX OF LOVE LETTERS, not that qingshu la, the the the eggrolls? qidanjuan (: cny goodies, left half a box.

SO! i went outside to throw some rubbish, then i saw huier and xiaoen sitting in a circle outside with shiaowei the girlguides in orange shirts. juniors i guess haha? :D

haha then xiaoen waves to me said hi haha, then i threw away my rubbish and went back class. then i tot of something, i cant give huier they all the love letters! :D

then i went out with the box and gave it to huier, then everyone laugh -- omg. whywhywhy? and huier was desperately trying to get rid of me. hahaha.. xD i found out later on the bus why all of them laugh. -.- i was sitting with charmaine, a girlguide haha then nearing bishan that time, i tot she needed the bell and was getting off haha and asked her if she needed the bell and whether i need to throw myself out of my seat hahahahah. then no need then we started conversing. haha then she tell me why everyone laugh at me that time. haha seems like their Senior + role models were telling them not to snack on too much cny goodies and what an irony that i stuck the box of love letters right in their role models face hahaha hhahahaha HAHAHAHAHAHAH.....

the i got off the bus, haha (:

KAKAY! i didnt see u on 156 D: will keep my eyes PEELED next time wahahaha (:

ohya, we continued watching frankenstein during la lesson. HAIZ im such a useless IT rep. ): so helpless. BAH STUPID MACHINES ): i PRESSED VIDEO BUTTON, then set the top player to L1, then got one lor! then suddenly disappear, this msg: "no input signal from rgb 1" ):

walao.... then restarted restarted restarted the whole thing. -.- i was so frustrated. haha then mr tan said relac relac. haha then later went to get mr ng from the it room haha. he JUST CAME IN and pressed the VIDEO button with his magic finger......

SO MR MACHINE. U GOT SOME PROBLEM WITH MY FINGER IS IT!

-- stupid machine. i shall poke it with a pen to turn it on next time. since it doesnt like my finger. ): haha sway suay bah (:

went home played the ms kang game, and slept

YAY!

my weekend is over just like that...

ohwells... time flies. it really does...

i shall get my act together!

JIAYOU! gonna finish my chemn ws 5 and 6! :D YIPPE!

and later continue with the rest hahaha okae

STILL VERY PAIN D:

i mean "that" pain.

oh ya.

thankyou yangjie laogong for the nutella! :DX)X)X)X)X)X)

and byebye blog! (:

homework time! (:

YSunday, January 18, 2009

my brother brought me to the zoo today. well i requested to go to the zoo. since he can get staff discount benefits there, he brought me there. Well, my bro doesnt work at the zoo. haha

Im feeling abit sad after i came back ): i feel cheated of my money.

WHAT DO U THINK OF WHEN YOUR HEAR THE WORD : CHEETAH?

WHAT DO U THINK OF WHEN YOU HEAR AUSTRALIAN OUTBACK KANGAROO??

well, im not sure what you would think of

but im pretty sure it'll be something like this:

SPRINTING @ HIGH SPEED for their prey

lounging low spying on their prey

Happy hopping creatures

with kiddies in their pouches (:

HOWEVER.

TODAY, the tigers, WERE SLACKING, they were hiding from the strong sun, hiding under the shade of the tree. and the cheetahs were sleeping* in the shade. THE WHITE TIGERS were yawning at the screaming children visitors. THE POLAR BEAR CAME OUT OF WATER AND practically planted itself in front of the air conditioner in its enclosure. the wolf was hiding deep into the trees ): THE ONLY NICE PICTURE I THINK I TOOK TODAY

WAS THE PICTURES OF THE SPONTANEOUS OTTERS> they are a noisy bunch ,hahahaha making lots of noises, tried to capture them in action swimming in water. (: but failed ):

Taking in the MOMENT on camera is really hard and mostly chance? LIKE, u dont always gets the spirit of the moment everytime. ): the otters were extremely sporting :D and the giant tortoise stood itself at the gate and started to get near to me. it got real near to me, i went to touch it. secretly xD its head feels nice (: rather dryish, scalish, hahahah but the tortoise was sporting (: then while i was enjoying this intimate human-animal moment, a child had to scream to their papa and mama and all the tourists swarmed towardss the giant tortoise.

so, i slid out of the crowd and looked at my friend from afar, my friend edged itself away from the gate and walked* far from the gate, deep into the enclosure. Bye my friend (: my fellow vegetarian friend haha (:

IM SAD ): i think im anti-zoo already. I THINK IM BETTER OFF PAYING FOR MY NAT GEO WILD CABLE VISION!!! ): theres this show on sundays called cheetah blood brother. MY GOD, thats the kind u want to see. haiz. cant blame the zoo though. if i could devise a whole new zoo system i would. cos the animals are so tame, you dont get intimate with nature anymore leh. more like seeing the tamed and tired animals. i rather rob the zoo and set them all free )':

they are like prisoners. robbed of their benxing, and being forcefully tamed ): i wanted to walk myself right into the white tigers den. HAIZ of course. I DIDNT.

something that i heard on NAT GEO WILD today:

"i hope that one day humans can learn to coexist alongside animals peacefully"

Its a film about this indian man/scientist/ environmentalist? going after the issues of indian wolves in india, dying out. their numbers even less than white tigers.

I FEEL SO USELESS! ): what the ell' can i do to help?

i have no idea )':

*says bye with a broken heart*

YFriday, January 16, 2009

Today.

I am feeling happy (:

1st - its a friday!

2nd- im alive!

3rd- i helped a stranger yesterday!

:D lets start with the stranger

i was on my way to popular yesterday going to check out on some math assesment books :D then i was on the train, and a woman came in, i sort of immediately identified that she is pregnant then i gave up my seat for her, cos she was standing without holding on to any support and trying to untangle her ipod earphone wire, i was afraid that she might fall (:

Then after a while the train quite crowded then i stand quite near her, then she was asking me, how u noe i pregnant, then i was like, "oh, my aunt also like your belly size liddat" aiya something like that. then she smile lor (: actually i was happy that i gave up my seat for her, cos the train jerked later, which means she migght have fallen. I think she is in her 2nd trimester, most likely 4months le :)

so yay to that!

And now now to start with happiness of a friday. Week 2 was kind of screwed ): sort of screwish! But i really enjoyed PE lessons, Math lessons, Physics lessons. I feel kind of happy, cos i finally start to straighten out my one big headache with math, physics and chemistry!

I'm sort of addicted to browsing blogshops, and interesting to look at the blacklisted stories! And i went to lavender for a payment meetup to pay for my 2 pg bags! :D My new year clothes are coming on 21st jan, wheee~

parade around with new clothes.

highly unlikely :)

Im still pondering about OBS again. My mom says its a waste of time and total crap. Cause i came back after it last year with horrible sandfly bites. Correct that, INCORRIGIBLE sandfly bites.

Ok, its abit late to reminisce about OBS, but i really huixiangqi.

- Stupid wetwetwet obs, all the rain. BAH.

- Heavy tents

- AND ALL THE ANT BITES ):

why the ants all bite me!

and not to mosquitoes.

- scary rowboat ride (i seriously thought im going to die there)

and alot hahaha (:
on a darker note ): i feel that my weekend is going to be consumed by work work work and more work. haiz. but tomorrow im going to the zoo! :D yay!!! (:
SINGAPORE ZOO HERE I COME MUAHAHAAHA

and this weekend is going to pass in a flash.. confirmed not going to go obs again liao (: what shall happen to me in week9? :D

lets leave it to fate
hahaha and byebye :)

YTuesday, December 30, 2008

I FOUND IT TOO SAYANG (可惜) to just X this conversation out with cynthia.
Partly to commemorate my imagination! :D HAHAHAH Kudos to cynthia for putting up with me! XD (u noe she sat with me for a year, YES THATS A YEAR )

WARNING: it is obscenely long due to my luosuo-ness? :D & millions of thanks for personal shopper, tasteful CYNTHIA for helping me with my online loots! :D

请做好心理准备。。。
countdown 5
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Catmad says:
im a parent!
Catmad says:
O.O!
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
=.=
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
who's the OTHER parent?
Catmad says:
oh
Catmad says:
its cynthia!
Catmad says:
xD
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
T________________________T
Catmad says:
*kicks up kinky leg and dances around*
Catmad says:
*holds a bucket under cynthia's face to contain her sodium chloride filled tears! ( wat a kind act! )*
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
T________________________________________________________T
Catmad says:
*brings cynthia to the reservoir*
Catmad says:
*such an eco-friendly act!*
Catmad says:
xD
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
T____________________________________________________________________________________T
Catmad says:
works out million dollar invention of the TEAR DIAPER!
Catmad says:
with mamypoko diapers cooperation
Catmad says:
*recives free set of tear diaper*
Catmad says:
* help put it on cynthia*
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
-cynthia has left this ridiculous conversation.
Catmad says:
*huici jumps into comp and pulls cynthia back *
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
-Catmad continues to talk to herself
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
- they struggle for a few hours.
Catmad says:
- with cynthia's tear diaper
Catmad says:
Catmad says:
*in the menawhile*
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
-they tear the tear diaper into little pieces
Catmad says:
*goes into collaberation with whisper*
Catmad says:
*and comes out with the tear pad!*
Catmad says:
*so now even girls Crying their eyes after heartbreak can look fashionable*
Catmad says:
* complete with the chic-est hot pink floral prints *
Catmad says:
*available at all major stores*
Catmad says:
*so get yours today now!*
Catmad says:
*oops, dont mean to say that you'll break up*
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
- ultra absorbent, so you can cry all day and all night!
Catmad says:
*YES! new and improved with double cotton lining*
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
cynthia says: you very bored is it? nothing to do is it?
Catmad says:
*now, laden full of nutrient rich cream to reduce eye bags after tearing*
Catmad says:
*now, available for men*
Catmad says:
*complete with the manliest, G2,000,000 black sheen*
Catmad says:
catmad says: u noe, we've got a whole new business concept in the works!
Catmad says:
*the reinvention of the TEAR PAD*
cynthia when your knight in shining armour turns out to be a loser in aluminium foil says:
cynthia says: yeah right.
Catmad says:
*"pissing around is very chanelllll" says karlaa lagarfeld*
Catmad says:
"when i mean ISNT very chanelll*
Catmad says:
*Karlaa lagarfeld takes over major designer role*
Catmad says:
*produces luxury line of the tear pad*
Catmad says:
*new billboard poster with1938 picture of lovely Mademoiselle grabrielle coco chanellll wearing photoshoped [lagar designed] tear pad goes onto the big billboards of paris*
Catmad says:
*hung on the tower, a whole new 300 metres full colour billboard print*
Catmad says:
* hot celebrity news: Major tennis star seen offering tear pads to opponent who lost and is Crying *
cynthia says:
-huici gets carried away and doesnt realise cynthia has long left to her pink hello panda beckoning to her
Catmad says:
- cynthia! this is a whole new million dollar concept!
Catmad says:
- come join me!
Catmad says:
*goes into collaboration with Gussi*
cynthia says:
cynthia says: wow the strawberry filling just spilled out!
cynthia says:
cynthia continues: and it is ultra crispy!
Catmad says:
*produces fire alarm shades, big fly gussi sades with hidden tear pads*
Catmad says:
-catmad: holds out hand to have a share of strawberry pie too!
cynthia says:
cynthia says: OOh and i got the panda with shades and an umbrealla!!
cynthia says:
cynthia : looks insulted. it is not a strawberry pie!
cynthia says:
it is hello panda with strawberry filling!!
Catmad says:
*YES! tear pad inc produces own company fan line of TEAR PAD UMBRELLA!*
cynthia says:
*groans.
Catmad says:
- hello panda!
Catmad says:
*say goodby to friends saying "hello panda" to you*
Catmad says:
*with the new any eye bag tear pad!*
Catmad says:
*with moisturising ingredients to give you the perfect supple eyes*
Catmad says:
*enough to melt HIS heart over and over again *
Catmad says:
*so come get yours now today, in preparation for a sudden eye bag attack*
Catmad says:
*Available at all major stores*
Catmad says:
*New "Luxuire" luxury tear pad only exclusively availabe at TheCynthiaSuitE(sweet) shoppe *
Catmad says:
WELCOME TO THE GRAND LAUNCH of
Catmad says:
TheCynthiaSuitE(sweet) shoppe
Catmad says:
--------------------&&--------------------------
Catmad says:
[cynthia! pls cut the ribbon with golden scissors! to grace the grand opening!]
cynthia says:
=.= =.= .=.=.=.=.=.=.=..=.=.=.=.=.
cynthia says:
Catmad says:
\ / [this is the blade of the scissors]
0 [this is the screw on the scissors]
../ \... [this is the handles of the scissors]
cynthia says:
it looks nothing like a scissors.
cynthia says:
Catmad says:
scissors proudly sponsored by TearPadInc
Catmad says:
T_______T
Catmad says:
HAHAH
cynthia says:
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Catmad says:
just CUT IT!
Catmad says:
------------&&------------- [the ribbon]
Catmad writes:

cynthia says:
it looks like someone scribbled on msn.
Catmad says:
cynthia! u still there?! the tear pad thing ??????????????
Catmad says:
HAHA
cynthia says:
oh WAIT. someone DID scribble on msn.
cynthia says:
dui lor.
Catmad says:
*cynthia graces the opening of TheCynthiaSuite(sweet) shoppe*
cynthia says:
yue shuo yue li pu
Catmad says:
HAHAHAHHAHHA
cynthia says:
*faints.
Catmad says:
*shop sells exclusive pads*
Catmad says:
*ranging from monthly needs to heartbreak needs*
Catmad says:
*so come get yours today for either needs!*
cynthia says:
havent finished ar!!
Catmad says:
HAVENT!
Catmad says:
i stil thinking opening branch leh!
cynthia says:
lao tian ye jiu ming arr
Catmad says:
HAHAHHA
Catmad says:
i feel like copying this entire conversation onto a word doc. to keep it
Catmad says:
or maybe can i upload with permission the tear pad parts to my blog for all to enjoy!
Catmad says:
ITS SUCH A PITY TO JUST CROSS THIS WINDOW OUT
Catmad says:
our million dollar idea!
cynthia says:
MY EXACT sentients.,
cynthia says:
*sentiments
Catmad says:
ok
Catmad says:
can we bothcopy onto both our blogs?
Catmad says:
cynthia says:
the blog title shall be: the stress NY girls face: Is it TOO big!?
Catmad says:
*Tear Pad [exclusive best friends day edition]*
Catmad says:
*the master hUiic shoots commercial*
Catmad says:
*bestie leaves gift in bestie's room*
Catmad says:
*a gift of the exclusive best friend day edition*
Catmad says:
*TEAR PAD! - with a note*
Catmad says:
*u can alway borrow my shoulder for an ultra absorbent tear pad*
Catmad says:
*well... what are best friends for*
Catmad says:
- CRITICALLY ACCLAIMED, commercial
Catmad says:
gets nominated into the Ooshcar Film/ CF awards
Catmad says:
*Works out another commercial. for exclusive Valentine's day tear pad edition*
Catmad says:
*girl gives guy a box of tear pad the loveliest valentine day exclusive edition*
cynthia says:
you know you can save this conversation and bring it for an interview at whispers?
Catmad says:
*that is complete in G2000 men black*
Catmad says:
- Really? would they want it?
Catmad says:
- maybe i should
Catmad says:
*with a note saying: *
Catmad says:
*i feel so safe with you. just like how a whisper pad is to me*
Catmad says:
*i can be myself so comfortably with you*
Catmad says:
*happy valentine's day*
Catmad says:
*guy very GANDONG*
Catmad says:
*tears*
Catmad says:
*open packaging to find*
cynthia says:
interviewer: uh..security?
cynthia says:
SECURIZTY!
cynthia says:
DA BOMB!
Catmad says:
*each individual pad casing with iloveyou*
Catmad says:
- SCARCE BLUES!
Catmad says:
- da is nonono bomb in my pads
Catmad says:
- I told u no BOMB! keep off keep off!
Catmad says:
- hey big guy, i said HAnds off my pads!
Catmad says:
*big guy is big, hard on the outside, but actually pretty much a softie*
Catmad says:
*big guy cries! : no body had scolded me b4! only mah' mama!*
Catmad says:
*hUiic feels sorry, apologies and helps to put on a pair of tear pad on bigguy*
Catmad says:
*bigguy feels very GANDONG*
Catmad says:
*bigguy says: uh'noe mah' mama*
cynthia says:
are you um, developing a story on msn??
Catmad says:
*this feels like how mah' mama feels to me, so warm and caring! ooh mahmah, immah buying this whole set of tear pad*
Catmad says:
*LIGHT BULB LIGHTS UP! new CF idea: RELEASE SPECIAL mamah day's edition*
Catmad says:
*bigguy feels gandong, joins security team in TearPadInc*
Catmad says:
*becomes head of security*
Catmad says:
TearPadInc becomes a global success phenomenon
Catmad says:
founder hUiic and cYnnthiiaaaaa grows old
Catmad says:
ann dedicate their 15 figure long fortune to charity
Catmad says:
and the needy for the world
Catmad says:
collaborates with REedCross
Catmad says:
launches campaign of, "TearPad cares for the world"
Catmad says:
- lending a ear and a tearpad for the needy to find solace and hope
Catmad says:
- be like a caring tear pad today! and donate generously to Reedcross
Catmad says:
Global language association officialises the word Tearpad
Catmad says:
it now also carries a meaning: to give comfort, care, concern, security, to protect.
Catmad says:
--- so.... BE A TEARPAD TODAY!
Catmad says:
Catmad says:
CYNTHIA! u still dere?
Catmad says:
lets consider doing a tearpad sequel as well
Catmad says:
cynthiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa u STIL DERE!???
cynthia says:
um
cynthia says:
im busy copying everything you say and pasting
cynthia says:
yeah
cynthia says:
so kind of busy
cynthia says:
cause you talk a lot.
Catmad says:
HAHA!
Catmad says:
OKAE! u;'re really going to publish it?!??!!?!?!?!?!?
Catmad says:
See cynthia!
Catmad says:
u're my muse
Catmad says:
wukequn ?????????? ????????????
cynthia says:
ohmygosh can you get ANY lamer.
Catmad says:
Tearpad ???????????? ??????????????????
Catmad says:
sing to the tune of ????????
Catmad says:
cnythia!
Catmad says:
shall i kuso weinixieshi tearpad exlcusive edition?
cynthia says:
uh, NO??
Catmad says:
tearpad 是一种好事
我开始全身十分舒适
tearpad 就像是爱人
我开始连自己都不是
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是送你tearpad。。。
Catmad says:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LSyLK_iT5tA sing to the tune of this link
Catmad says:
送你tearpad送你爱情
cynthia says:
haha
cynthia says:
hui tan gang qin de nan sheng hao shuai oo
Catmad says:
为你设计为你装置
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会设计tearpad
为你失去理智（my partner cynthia agrees with this）
为你设计为你装置
为你所不可能的事
为你设计所有安全感的tearpad。。。。
我忘了说最美的是它（tearpad）的意思
cynthia says:
hha
cynthia says:
you know it doesnt really match
Catmad says:
tearpad 是一种好事
你的舒适是唯一宗旨
tearpad是一种本事
我在你心里什么位子
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你设计tearpad。。。
Catmad says:
HAHA
Catmad says:
cynthia wil have to do the improvisation!
Catmad says:
QUITE MATCH WAD!
Catmad says:
XD
Catmad says:
school reopen come to me I SING FOR U
Catmad says:
xD
cynthia says:
kay!!
Catmad says:
DEAL OR NO DEAL!
Catmad says:
Catmad says:
*no hunk though, got tearpad
Catmad says:
cynthia! Are you really putting ALL THAT ON UR BLOG?
Catmad says:
wukequn 越爱越难过，我越写越离谱

Kudos to the original song and singer

:D and sorry for my immense LAMENESS!

buy me a wheelchair next time will you

"and wheelchair of the year goes to..."

OK is it bad to joke about wheelchairs!

sorry! ):

YMonday, December 29, 2008

HIHIHIHI ALL! :D

im in high spirits today! XD

TODAY! i spent almost half of my day at the ICA! :D
to finally MAKE MY IC! :D haha i hear as if yangchenlin from buliangxiaohua in my head saying: HUHU!!! (: yay and thats a load of my to-do list. I CUT MY hair already, become mushroom head le. :D but this time not so mushroom, got layer abit xD i tell u layers dont work for me! :D COS they will anyhow qiao one -- haha so i learnt my lesson, layer ABIT only (:

OH MAN AND I WENT ALONE
TOTALLY ALONE OK
BOOHOOOOO )::::::
HAHAHAA but it was fun

took a decent IC photo. OH MAN. i hate taking photos -- take a photo of me only if u had BLINDING flashlight, expose me to OVEREXPOSURE of flash! to blind out my zit attack haha and my braces. HAHAAH but this photo still quite ok!

my queue number was B604! :D i waited from B400+ till my number! :D HAHAHA a child kept on playing with my short hair and tod her mom that her hair and my hair same shortness haha quite cute, pretended to fall asleep so she can fangxin de play. haha children should have fun mah! :D then this little boy keep crawling under the chairs. (: played abt 20 rounds of EASY lvl sudoku on my phone and i saw A-L-O-T ALOT of 15yr olds! :D and parents with children, babies in their arms. haha registrar of birth and death. if i were to remake the commercials. i think i would make a slogan like,

"share the joy of your dearest newborn

come on down and share with us the name of your bundle of joy

for registration of newborns,

please proceed to the auto ticketing machine

for a queue ticket

then proceed to the respective counter range as stated

to await your turn @ the counter

(:"

haha, i always give my respect to the custom officers, airport, checkpoints, shipyards, cargo exchange. They have such a BIG responsibility. (: i love the smell of the building, i dunno why! just smells nice! XD make me happy, the smell of AUTHORITY! :D honestly i think they were very fast, cos compared to other's experiences who otld me they waited 2-3 hours, i waiting like 1 1/2 close to 2 ? haha nvm, its worth the wait. :D and the lady at the counter, shes so

NICE! :D i was so nervous, i said"hi ma'am! its my first time registering" haha shes like tickled, like OF COURSE IDIOT! first time ma! XD hahhhahahahaha then i told her i dont like my picture. (: then she say 30 yrs old have to update ic so can change a nice picture then. I SWEAR i going to take the picture with professional make up i mean the CONCEALERS, for my wrinkles, zits, age spots -.- i really got age spots u'know., if u look closer. :D

THEN haha i reshuffled a whole new on-the-go playlist on my poddie! :D then i listened to alot of songs, haahaha all the lovely love songs! :D x) with no lack of meijiuges (:

hah so i left the place @ abt 4+ made my way to the mrt, took the train from lavender to cityhall then changed to north south line. hahaha THEN! this guy was so funny. the carriage is like FULL? actually NOT, just that people are UNWILLING TO MOVE IN to the between the carriage places. -- damnit like 那边有鬼meh，不可以移进去meh！

then got this malay guy, he so funny, with his friends then they kept squeezing in! then his fren b ag sort of stuck to my bag. then i was SANDWICHED between an aunty and THE BAG -- WLAO.but i was stuck onto a genuineYSL suede bag haha as bragged by the guy. then train moved on to next stop dhoby ghaut, i "excuse me!"-ed all the way into the Between-the-carriage place. then the malay guy and his 2 friends made their way in also. the alot of people flocked in! U SEE, becos of us, people save time that they can board the TRAIN! as in no need to wait for the nex train sia! WLAO, MOVE IN PEOPLE!

then! :D BECOS OF INCONSIDERTE PPLE wbo refused to move in, this uncle's bag or rather arm got stuck in the closing doors, of course, the door opened again.

then the announcement was like "doors are closing BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP"

FUNNY STUFF "THE GUY" SAID #1

then THE GUY said "doors are closing, for the third fkin time, please get your ass onto the train" then i laughed, as in, i was honestly tickled la! :D really funny mah, then his friend stare at me -- wlao. IT WAS GENUINELY FUNNY. then their conversation so funny. -- then THE GUY i dont think he singaporean, haha, he was saying

FUNNY STUFF "THE GUY" SAID #2

"you know how the lavatory, the toilet are located in the middle of the sections of the plane?"

friend "yah/ duh"

"so i always thought that the connection of the carriages was a toilet, like u see i tot can open and got toilet"

HAHAHAHAHHAAHAAHAHAHA WDV IT was funny the way he said it.

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHA

u noe like betwen the carriages got this shaky place, then if u look closly like got 2 boards total on each side of ONE carriage? then feels like u can flip it open. haahahahah TOILET... WOW

FUNNY STUFF "THE GUY" SAID #3

"we can get on the train one la. cause we have learnt the ART OF SQUEEZING no prob one, usually people get their asses off at orchard. so there'll be plenty of space, oh ya sijit? (didnt hear clearly) u like wat brand is ur watch."

"swiss"

"oh, so u like swiss watches. then wat type u like?"

"what what type?"

"those type with big IN-YOUR-FACE face. and also wat kind of strap"

"okay with the size of faces, usually big size,"

"then what type strap?"

"any strap"

the other friend "give bra strap la"

THE GUY: "wlao, SO RUDE, here got LADIES, ladies L-A-D-I-E-S!"

then the other friend was like saying for their some overseas crazy hunt, they gonna create this scavenger hunt where they have to approach total strangers well FEMALE strangers to donate their BRA STRAPS if its unhookable on both ends to make watch strap. --

the guy: "whoa u very clear hor, even noe bra strap got hook on sides or not. PRO ARH"

other friend: WLAO BRA STRAP OF COURSE GOT HOOK. wad!

the guy + sj: but how u noe got variation one, like we both nvr knew, only u noe arh, so EXPERIENCED (like OMG.. --) we all tot like ONE PIECE, u noe like T-shirt except that back got 2 hooks but not to hook the straps over the shoulders is the one holding the cups one.

other friend: (slightly embarrassed) EH got ladies, LADIES, dont say liao la, so loud somemore.

HAHAHAHAH I didnt mean to eavesdrop, but they were just saying so LOUD SOMEMORE. ahaah ok not loud as in beside them can hear. -- hahahah x) funnyfunnyfunny! english as broken as it is! haha sounds so homely (:

anyway it was funny! :D and i spent $8.20 @ Mr.Bean, i bot 6 sian dousha, one chocolate one red bun sort of BUN THING, then one cold dounai. but the woman gave me a HOT dounai. -- hahah but nvm, then i brot my stuff into the train. of course i didnt eat. (: bring home share with my aunty and parents :D xiaohei was staring at me pleadingly xD so gave her a little piece of bun without the chocolate, they cant take chocolate (: haha so my day sort of ended. (: haha

WAH, im at the office, cant go home watch the drama, mondays got special back to back episodes of little nyonya! man i love their starting song! Sounds DEEP, CULTUR-OUS and nice! :D

loveloveloveit! :D i watch until the part last friday where aunt lan was pushed over by a frantic husband of Meiyu (cant rmbr his name) when aunt lan sort of found out that he was having affair with xiujuan. poor yuzhu! WAH i HATE the CHARLIE ZHANG and his son. stupid rich snobbers! sometimes i feel like jumping into the tv and strangling them AH WELLS -- xD wonder what happens NEXT! :D bah, already missed the first 25 minutes of the show liao D: %$#%##$ MAMA I WAN GO HOME! XD i hope they can close shop earlier ): so we can go have dinner earlier and tv and rest (: HAAH U NOE I PLANNED TO GO home to day one. so got backtobackTVenjoyment! like

7pm channel 8 心花朵朵开2

8pm channel 8 小娘惹

9pm channel 8 小娘惹

10pm channel U 一枝梅

BOOHOO THERE GOES MY MEI MENG! HMPH! T-t

u see BACK TO BACK enjoyment, total 4 hours! X)

OKAY! am tired go help 关店了！

byebye! :D

PONYO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YSaturday, December 27, 2008

i AM SOOOO FREAKING TIRED!!!!!!!
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i feel so deprived of sleep!!!
i dream so much i FEEL EVER MORE TIRED after i wake up
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh
and i am limited to pills only once a week!
@##$@*&()&#@$#^%&*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'

bloodybloodyrem!!!!!

YFriday, December 26, 2008

the cute dad :D^^

ive got a

planner,

executive writing pad :D,

new20pocketsclearfolder

a new blue pen that i rllyRLY LIKE!

a nice tigger notebook for Qns

buahahah, im all set to go for 2009. ah wells, the feeling hasnt really stabled. but i guess i sort of kandekai already.. ah wells, life goes on (:

I shall post abt 24th dec! i went to watch cape no.7 with jinjin! omg, it was a really deep touching movie! (: love,music,life sort of mixed feelings after that show. aniwaes, really really enjoyed the show the male lead's singing is real good. :D i was late for 1/2 hour in meeting jinjin D: i waited for bus 28 for close to an hour ): haizzz. and the rain just wont stop raining, + i didnt bring the common gate remote out, so i couldnt run back and get my umbrella. i just left it at home, totaly forgot the existence of rain. HAI. aniwaes. took 28 to toapayoh, and took the train to orchard and got REALLY LOST outside orchard mrt. should go out to the taka exit there, but went to the orchard boulevard exit. -.- jinjin says that im singaporean, yet am so lost in singapore's most hustly and bustly street. heehee. the buildings all look the same!!! XD -- its just ALOT of junctions hahahhhahhaha. shall improve my direction sense P:

the we had late lunch @ 1 at this jap food restaurant heehee, jinjin ate the soba dish and i ate puddings and drank coke :D hahahhahaah the mango pudding quite nice (: jinjin explained to me wat was soba. ahwells :D i didnt know whether do they mix utensils, so i didnt eat the soba :D shall learn to make vegan soba when im free. (: *enjoying my delicious curry puff*

then we went to the hall 6 of the cinema for our cape no. 7 after trying to decipher the confusing lvls of cineleisure! :D in the end we couldnt go in cos it wasnt SEATING YET! hmph... gahahah so we went down to get popcorn coke, we got a combi for 8bucks :D popcorn 1/2 sweet + salty, 2 cokes + 2 seaweed cuttlefish hahaha (: then went to watch. (:

after that SEPHORA!!! (: but was a BIGBIG letdown ): )'': there was no MakeUpForEver, but the usual biggies that u can find everywhere. lancome, guerlain. I REALLY want the makeupforever lipbalm ): jie gave one to me, but i lost it! and its reallygood , i MEAN REALLY GOOD! its abt US$18. man,,,, why didnt they bring in the labels that are not in singapore. the too faced counter was dazzling, but i dont really like too faced, not much pigment and sort of fades/ wearout soon. HAHAA, dunno, but i like MakeUpForEver! (: man i really love MUFE! x) hxjie uses it alot and ive seen how good it is HAHAA, wore some of it for ONCE, felt quite nice, at least no skin irritation (: hxjie loves it and absolutely blasts away alot of her salary for a loot of it usually off the net (: so much that she cancels sephora email updates. cause whenever she checks her mail, and sees sephora mails, it massacres her lovely wallet :D which is NOT GOOD.

COS, if its VERY massacred. she'll scrimp -- and... there goes my free treats :D HEEEEEEHEEE! hahha ok, back to little movie trip. jinjin advises that should try shiseido! cause its made to suit asian skin. (: not a fan of shiseido ads, the maquillage ones kinda blah oopssss.... jsut a personally opinion, but i like this lipstick ad by ito misaki :D hahahah realy CUTE and CREATIVE, original, NAME IT! (:

ah wdv too lazy I WANT TO SLEEP SO BYE

YWednesday, December 24, 2008

i can't stop listening to all the songs below. -- HMPH

唯一

大城小爱

不要害怕

Forever Love

Kiss Goodbye

所以我说leh。。。歌颂感情的歌曲是百听不厌和永远都不会过时的！(:

YTuesday, December 23, 2008

Falling here and there

stumbling

into a whole new world of close strangers

Survival

Thriving

I'm nervous ):

I'm rather overwhelmed at times ):

COURAGE

YES

find my courage!

COURAGE!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHH!!!!!

-------------------------------------------

and i just want to dedicate this lovely poem,

to my friends (:

Of all the friends i've ever met,

You're the one i wont forget

And if i die before you do

i'll go to heaven and wait for you

i'll give the angels back their wings

and risk the loss of everything

Just to prove

my friendship is true

to have such a great friend

just like you!

OK HERE GOES another version xD

Of all the friends i've ever met

You're the one i wont forget

and if i die before you do

i'll go to heaven and wait for you

if you're not there on judgement day

i'll know you went the other way

i'll give the angels back their wings

and risk the loss of everything

Just to prove my friendship is true

I'll go to hell to be with you

And so very genius! :D those people who wrote these poems! X) Spread the love, and officially,

Merry Christmas!

YMonday, December 22, 2008

i want to take care of children!

ok this sounds pretty random (:

but i randomly clicked on this dumex ad and went exploring their website. and there was this trivia about TOUCH!

Touch is the only sense that gives your baby three things they need. It provides a sense of safety and security, gets them involved with the world around them and is a way that you can communicate with them and they can respond to you. As if you needed an excuse for more cuddles! <3

haha :D

it gives me more reason to exercise my NUOMI-NESS!

WHAAHAAHAHAAAH MUAHAHAHAHAHAH BUAHAAHAHHAHAHAH!!!

今天我很感动

真的真的很感动！谢谢你kk！Thankyou for all the great memories! :D
i will never forget during obs, the torture of 11km. our bottles tied together, haha the time when we were during sentry duty and we sat on the jerry cans outside and chatted! :D and the SCARY rowboat ride. You are really really REALLY BRAVE. i seriously thought i would die there on the scary seas. a voice in my head was really really REALLY sort of making out the headlines on the papers tmrw reporting death of blabla on the seas. ): gee, im really afraid of water. :D And also the times when u cooked, haha! the maggi noodles (: hee.

Thankyou for being really considerate. I could nag abt this for a long time but i really must say this:

Cos im a vegetarian.

im afraid of troubling people with my special diet

and THANKYOU VERY MUCH

for always

挺身而出ing

拔刀相助ing

my princess in shining tresses! :D

u did all that in both obs and gcp

THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU!

Thankyou for always been there, listening to me at night even after lights out. Listening to me rant abt my century long medical history problems, my xinshi. Thankyou for lending me a listening ear always! Thankyou for being my travel-mate, on the bus, or around those trips during gcp! i am an extremely 糯米饭 + superglue + silicon sealing/bonding gel person :D thankyou for putting up with my nuomi-ness and lameness. haha :D and also when my evil, emo twin possesses me. thankyou! thankyou for the daidi and bridge lessons!:D 名师出“高徒”xD seriously, u made me use my brain so much that i really conk out that day after all that daidaibridging :D somuch that i wasnt much bothered abt rem sleep the day after.

thankyou for telling me about myself, i've never felt so positive about myself ever. (:

and here in BIG BOLD WORDS:

THANKYOU!

i guess im pretty housewifey. dunno. but, its just me that i like to take care of pple. im not praising myself, but haha i like the feeling of taking care of people. MAn, i havent got around to learning first aid. i think i might take a cours in nursing perhaps?

i believe all creations comes from emotions and comes from gandongs. so much that you create something to memento the gandong. I can already visualize my future creations. And definitely am going to dedicate them to the great people that i've known. Apparently my mom has voiced out that i'm not the dressy kind. But... here goes :D i like dressing others up but just cannot dress myself up. i've found my voice, my direction for my future.

I feelthat ive grown up, recgonised more about myself, recgonised that i actually have many friends who are willing to support me. i salute you guys for helping me, pushing me and giving me the moral support. even though if im going to retain, i wont forget you guys. even though im going to be one level behind you guys, i will really miss you guys!

Thanks to all these people!:

Kakay(ive seriously learnt alot from u), Jessica who always there for me!, Christine, Liqi, Soochin, xiangchuin

Quekying, caijing, jinjin for lending me her notes and jyjy-ing me along, xinhui, carol, kaiqing

THERES too many people to thank. TOO MANY TOO MANY....

i will continue sharing food, sharing stuff, sharing my love.

im just like marley

give me your heart, and i'll give you mine

Life doesnt stop, and i promised myself not to cry about the FA result after today. i will sleep tonight, hide under my blanket and cry all abt it. and after that, when the tears dry, i will remember and cherish the good the people around me have shown me. As much as i bushede u guys, i will wish you guys all the best in sec4. And, i will never forget you guys.

With so much love im in, i dont see why i should think that life is bleak.

its colourful, and its gaining more hues and joy exponentially.

words cant phrase out exactly what i feel now.

but to those out there who have always been supporting me, i give you my heartfelt thanks from the bottom of my heart. and to those new people that im going to be with next year, i hope you guys can accept me and im gonna make sure no one follows in my path. i will give the people around me my heart. i will make my life better.

Thankyou my dear friends.

Our last day is not today.

our last day is going to be so MANY years down the road.

come to think of it

we're only 15 (10+)

and when it comes to our last day

we'll be jolly old and grey

I'll always give all the ones i love my heart and all

I'll always give them my care and protection

I'll always give them my support

I'll always remember the ones who helped me along bumps and falls.

help me pick myself out of the doldrums

Thankyou all of u guys. i've never felt so positive about myself before. i'm going to start afresh.

AND in BIG BOLD WORDS:

FEEL THE LOVE!<3